3000 Questions – Perfect Happiness

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As part of my attempts to stretch my creative writing juices, I’ll be posting answers to a book of 3000 Questions About Me.

Question 1: What is your idea of perfect happiness?

This would go back to the idea of “heaven”—a place without pain, sadness, or sin. However, my view of heaven has changed. I no longer believe in a mythical place out in the ether somewhere. I believe that heaven will be placed on this earth, as a new and restored world, where God finally reigns as king and oversees all. Where, even though we have a knowledge of good and evil, we choose to do good.

Friday Feeling

I haven’t felt like writing recently. I’ve been in such a fog. Feeling lazy and unmotivated. What can I say that doesn’t involve me explaining why the Eagles suck this season?

Things have been steady and neutral. My son’s behavior isn’t as troublesome at school and work isn’t driving me nuts (at the moment).

Wednesday I find out the results of my pregnancy test. Hoping, wishing, and praying for a positive outcome.

#BeYou

As I move forward into 2019, my theme for the next 14 months will be #BeYou. This involves a process of learning to not only love myself but to also stay true to who I am.

I’ve often been accused of being “too white.” My skin color is dark but my vocabulary is “white.” My music is “white.” My interests are “white.”

I am a black chick living in America. I don’t have to conform to anyone’s idea of who I should be. I can be Republican. I can be Democrat. I can be non-partisan. I can be pro-life. I can be pro-choice. I can be boring. I can be exciting.

But who am I really? Well, I’m in my mid-30s and still trying to figure that out. I enjoy a good dose of English grammar and proper usage. I love an extensive vocabulary, almost to the point of magniloquence. I read. I write. I edit. (Not usually all of the same things at the same time.)

In this journey to #BeMe, I’ve expanded the hashtag to #BeYou to encourage others in their journey to be themselves and stay true to who they are. For someone who has never been content with who she is (why can’t I just be a white girl with nice hair?), this will be an ongoing lesson in appreciating who I am and who God has made me to be.